Recently, I had to close a chapter in my life and open another. As of October 26, I no longer had my job with Linux.com. OSDN had decided to take Linux.com in another direction and “make it more profitable.” So, we were all laid off and that was the end of it. Contractors were given 9-days notice and that was only because Dean hunted answers down and was told about it before we were going to be informed.
So, on October 27, I realized that I was jobless with no source of income coming in anytime soon. That’s not a terribly comforting thought. Thankfully, on Tuesday when I started to do desperate job-hunting (ie, job hunting that has nothing to do with my major. see “Eddie Bauer, Best Buy, etc.), I went into Eddie Bauer, applied for a position and was hired by the end of the day. It pays nothing close to what I need to earn, but at least it’s something and for now, that will do.
It’s kind of weird, though, because this is also the time of year where I have to register for spring classes and I think about how my life is going to be changing. That thought is really intimidating to me right now. Before, I was always the one to decide when something changed. This time, though, that decision was pulled out from under me and OSDN decided. Not me. So, I had no backup plan. It’s a bit scary moving through life with no backup plan. I don’t think I’ll ever be quite as cavalier about my job again. Job security has taken on a whole new meaning to me. But, I guess that happens to everyone sometime in their lives…
Who knows. At least for now, things are starting to work themselves out. I am feeling more secure about what’s happening and what’s going to happen. I’m learning the true meaning of having faith and knowing that everything will work itself out in the end. That means a lot, too, from someone who bases very little of her life on faith.